Friday, February 11, 2011

Beating the Failure Feeling

So I am struggling with being a failure as a parent. I have been trying to find the humor in the little things and have to some extent. However in the whole picture I have just felt like a ginormous failure.

You see I have discovered that I am the most selfish person around. I guess admitting the problem is the first step. Perhaps it is the fits that my children go into when ever I try to do something that I want or need to do. As long as they are doing what they want they are happy, but when it is mom's turn no way. You know that old saying "things that really bother you in other people is something that you are"

Last night I sat wallowing in my own self pitty trying to figure out what to do. I prayed and asked the Lord to forgive me for my selfish attitude and to help me change and become more like HIM. I am not sure how this will all take place but I do hope that He is successful. I just keep clinging to Philippians 1:6

In the mean time I will continue to search for the high points and times of Joy and laughter that we need to have.

1 comment:

  1. I think if we don't self-assess with integrity, then we're definitely failures as parents. I think you wouldn't be doing the job correctly if you weren't wracked with self-doubt. Parenting is the most delayed-gratification job I can think of. Think about it: you don't know if what you did was the right thing for 15 or 20 years! When all else fails, go back to the tried and true: Love your children and keep them clean and fed and sheltered. You're not supposed to be their friend, you're supposed to be their protector...there is a difference.